"By Accident "

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                                                        "By Accident " .


I felt like a child walking out of the court room that day. Scrambling my paper work and shivering with anger. Not getting what I wanted . But getting much less then I expected. The feeling of unfairness settled for less and the feeling of hate and anger settled for longer time.

“It wasn’t fair. When is it always fair. ” My thoughts scrambled to get some answers. Never the less it was to late to do something about it. “It wasn’t my fault either. ”
I was found half dazed on the scene of the accident. So why was it my fault?

Or was it it even only a dream. Just waited for about an hour for reality to kick in.
The feeling sunk in. Yes. I’m awake. Yes. I remembered the horrific scene of the accident that by accident I caused. Some how. Some where.  The death stare. The death smell. But no way near death experience. Or was it merely just something that I over eexaggerated.
It’s not like no one died in the accident. Or even worse disappeared.

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